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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

heres another post filled with subtleties you might go crazy haha. oh well i am going to make my point.

was doing my own thinking and yeah really kinda sorted it out.

sometimes i think relationships are like a super long journey between two blind people.
imagine 2 blind people, who are on a long crazy journey of life, not knowing where are the right paths and cannot really see for themselves the future, and can only walk by feeling, experimenting. thats in a world full of blind people la, no one can see cleary.

the blind person in question never stops walking, because he knows he needs to keep moving on, continuing his journey. it was probably a pretty tough but manageable time walking alone, feeling his way around, making mistakes and probably repeating them. and along came this very nice and wonderful partner who appears to make it all better. this partner seems to know the road very very well and seems pretty reliable, and that both know they can count on each other. so these two blind people decide to walk this terrible long journey together, they rely on each other very very much, they remind each other of the wrong turns they took, encourage each other, and it really made the journey alot easier to walk.

keep in mind, this blind person keeps walking. if you cant keep up with him, you are probably not the one who is meant to walk together with him. dont cheat and make use of any other walking aids either, such as your walking stick,getting directions from other people, getting an eye transplant etc, to show that you are someone who is able to become a pillar of support. because all these will just fall apart, they are just not meant to last the distance.

also dont keep falling down as a partner, because this blind person will lose trust in you, in his initial perception of your reliance. you are supposed to be his guide and aide, and you cant just keep failing right? this blind person might pick you up for a few times, but dont expect him to always do so. his journey takes priority more than anything else.

think about it, if his partner is not anything special, trustworthy, reliable, why would this blind person drop all signs of independence to rely on him/her? wouldnt there be no difference from picking any of the other blind people living in this fictional world?


you might not understand this post, but it doesnt matter, because i know at some point in life this is going to be applicable to you, this whole little thought experiment of mine.


i dont wish to know how this should end.


Thursday, March 25, 2010

its the little things that count i guess, be it the packed food, questions like "how your day went", home made breakfast with a note and pipa gao in the morning and the list goes on which can all be only summed up to one word: LOVE.

LOVE is a pretty complicated thing, and i think you dont need to be in a relationship to experience this, because it can be found anywhere, family, your best buddies. It doesnt really mean as much to say "i love you" when the actions do not include any of the above mentioned, which of course represent the care and concern of any individual. i believe the actions speak for themselves and when people actually do these things for people, the effect of saying those 3 words are just but a minor reaffirmation yet poor representation of how one truly feels for the parties related.

yet i must state the obvious opposite, to not say those wonderful words and not do any of those things at all would be a little tricky. of course there might be a phase where these things stop, the negative atmosphere, everyone feels upset. Yet deep inside we still do know that these mutual feelings exist and we know they would last for very long.
however i guess these feelings and thoughts and all the negativity builds up over time and in the end everyone just wants to hide. its very tough, everyone wants to be the victim. we want to wallow in self pity, portray ourselves as the victims, even as adults, cause thats really the easiest and simplest thing to do.

so if everyone on earth suddenly decides to do that, wont that be tragic.
someone has to really take the initial step, to try to build that bond, if you really want to experience this thing called LOVE, no matter how hard it is, because some things wont change, like family bonds whether you like it or not.


and to a certain extent it is such a tiring thing viewing from a distance for all these years, yet i am glad that these experiences have taught me alot about how life should be, the decisions we make, and how they impact one another. i hope things work out for them yet i cant help yet marvel at the way MY life has been going.


many sour notes, but
i have got everything i need :)

pardon the poor english, just speed typing and sharing my thoughts.
enough said!