its the little things that count i guess, be it the packed food, questions like "how your day went", home made breakfast with a note and pipa gao in the morning and the list goes on which can all be only summed up to one word: LOVE.

LOVE is a pretty complicated thing, and i think you dont need to be in a relationship to experience this, because it can be found anywhere, family, your best buddies. It doesnt really mean as much to say "i love you" when the actions do not include any of the above mentioned, which of course represent the care and concern of any individual. i believe the actions speak for themselves and when people actually do these things for people, the effect of saying those 3 words are just but a minor reaffirmation yet poor representation of how one truly feels for the parties related.

yet i must state the obvious opposite, to not say those wonderful words and not do any of those things at all would be a little tricky. of course there might be a phase where these things stop, the negative atmosphere, everyone feels upset. Yet deep inside we still do know that these mutual feelings exist and we know they would last for very long.
however i guess these feelings and thoughts and all the negativity builds up over time and in the end everyone just wants to hide. its very tough, everyone wants to be the victim. we want to wallow in self pity, portray ourselves as the victims, even as adults, cause thats really the easiest and simplest thing to do.

so if everyone on earth suddenly decides to do that, wont that be tragic.
someone has to really take the initial step, to try to build that bond, if you really want to experience this thing called LOVE, no matter how hard it is, because some things wont change, like family bonds whether you like it or not.


and to a certain extent it is such a tiring thing viewing from a distance for all these years, yet i am glad that these experiences have taught me alot about how life should be, the decisions we make, and how they impact one another. i hope things work out for them yet i cant help yet marvel at the way MY life has been going.


many sour notes, but
i have got everything i need :)

pardon the poor english, just speed typing and sharing my thoughts.
enough said!