you've gotta ask yourself what do you want from this stint? do you want to educate, open young minds, impact their lives in one way or another? or just be a friend like you usually are around people? because it certainly seems easier to be a friend. is it possible to have both then? educate, and be a friend? theres such a fine line between them.
if i want to educate, how far will i go to ensure these young children will be good? if i want to be a friend, how much of a friend should i be? what about teaching children something that you love, but they dont necessarily share the same "passion" with you? isit worth it then?
at the end of the day, its not about the money cause i am really underpaid, for the things i do, staying back, putting in at least 10 hours at least 3 times a week for them. will they know where i am coming from every time i shout at them? like who loves shouting man, i'd very much rather be sitting down with all of them and talk crap have a nice chat.
sometimes i think about what else could i have been doing without this job, like slacking at home waiting for time to pass, rather than throw myself straight into the same boring routine for the past 6 years.
i am stuck here because i want to see payday, and the day comes when all uvphs choristers are of one heart, one mind, one soul, one family. then nothing else really matters already :)